it's been days since i last on my computer
upon turning on the computer
last msn convo on 23rd sept appear on my screen
6 days without the computers
even screen of facebook looks too glaring to the eyes .

there is something,
something that i really have to type out for myself to see
seeing is better then visualising
and these few days has been a lot about thought and PERSONAL emotions
but here goes ..
what is a blog for ?
why do i even wanna waste my time posting thing here .
if it cannot be anything from my bottom of my heart
why would i still bother ?
to be frank ,
because of everything that had happen or is happening NOW ,
at this time ,
i cannot say that it has not affected me at all !
i, myself now ,
is afraid to type my true feelings out
out into this blog .
because i know people judge
judging with whatever way they want to .
be it true or imaginary .

i am being true to myself tonight !
i hate being judge
i have not really been myself these days
selfish and self centered
i have my own thoughts and i like to share them here
because i thought, or maybe use to think that this is my personal space
my paradise!
i was wrong ..
maybe i might be typing this tonight and feel different tmr
nothing stays the same all the time .
and everyone change
EVERY SINGLE TIME !
but AT LEAST TONIGHT
i know i felt whatever way i type (: